<With English Translation Below>
嗨👋 大家對突如其來的網站變動肯定感到很訝異吧?
為什麼要改網站?不做花藝了嗎?為什麼要開始寫文章?竟然還開始放自己拍攝的照片了?
這人到底在想什麼啊?
其實這一切都是源自於恐懼。
再次來英國已經一年半了,行銷專業畢業的我卻做著一份勉強可以糊口的工作。在這份工作中,我對於使用英語溝通的自信是提升不少,但是其他能力卻沒有任何顯著進步;這樣的生活讓我感覺很害怕,彷彿隨時都可能被他人取代。人在異鄉,需要簽證才能繼續留著,卻做著一份看似誰都可以輕易上手的工作。
「我這部分做錯了,唉...是不是馬上就會被炒了?」
「我感覺我的價值好像也就這麼一點。」
在負面的環境工作,在壓力之下的你有這種感受嗎?
「好想做點不一樣的。」
「他/她的生活感覺很有趣,真好。」
一成不變、枯燥乏味的生活,是不是讓你也有這種想法?
我有。 每當有這種想法時,我就會打開網站重新開始找工作。然而,卻因沒有相關經驗而不斷被拒絕,心裡想:「最好是有人一出生就有工作經驗啦!什麼至少要三年行銷經驗啊!」,再摸摸鼻子把求職網站關掉。「唉,我能力不夠,還是乖一點吧!咬著牙總可以撐過的。」隔天早晨又在痛苦中起床;日復一日,年復一年。
很慶幸的是我在疫情之中短暫與大家透過芲見了面,用花束替大家傳達心意。現在來到英國,體會到要在這裡成為一份自由接案花藝師真的好不容易;這部分我之後再向你們娓娓道來!
儘管有一份穩定(?)的正職工作以及偶爾當個花藝師,我仍在恐懼之中:畢竟清楚知道自己幾斤幾兩重。所以我想練習用文字記錄生活,進而習慣「分享」這件事情,最終達到練習Copywriting的目標;經營這網頁也同時讓我更熟悉數位行銷的種種細節,如果心有餘力的話也想練練自己的英文(把文章翻譯成英文)。
與其重新創一個部落格(例如:痞客邦),倒不如在我自己熟悉的地方,分享給已經認識我的大家。慢慢來,一步一腳印也不錯對吧?
所以在這裡,我希望你們會目睹我的成長,一起在可能混沌的人生中獲得啟發,然後一同朝著目標所前進。偶爾失意沒關係,但是總有一天,我們會活成自己理想中的樣貌的。
如果你們有希望我分享什麼內容,或是對英國生活有什麼好奇的,歡迎私訊我!
接下來的日子,還請大家多多指教~
Hello👋 I bet that everyone must feel surprised at the sudden change to the website.
Why did you modify it? Are you not doing floral design anymore? Why are you start writing articles? I cannot believe that you even started sharing the photos you took on the website.
What are you actually thinking?
All these changes stem from fear.
It has been one and a half years since I came back to the UK. I, who graduated with a Marketing degree, am doing a non-marketing-related job to barely make ends meet. Although during this period, my confidence in English communication has significantly increased, other skills, however, have not improved much. I am terrified of this status as I seem to be easily replaced.
I am living in a foreign country that requires a visa to stay but I am doing a job that seems like people can get the hang of it facilely. If that is the case, who would be willing to sponsor me?
"I did this wrong. Am I going to get fired soon...?"
"I cannot see my value in this job."
Do you have the same feeling while working in a negative environment and under the pressure?
"I want to do something different."
"His/ Her life looks amazing. I am jealous."
Does the unchanging and boring life make you have this thought?
I do. I always start job haunting when discouragement pops into my mind. Nevertheless, I was rejected again and again by the companies because of my lack of experience. I can do nothing but tell myself that it will be fine. I can live this life. But the truth is, I look down on myself and lose the faith in changing my life. I don't trust myself to be capable of taking on any challenges. This became a vicious circle. Day after day, year after year.
I still feel so blessed that I had the experience of running a floral studio and meeting you guys via Hua during the pandemic, conveying your love and caring through the bouquets. Now that I am in the UK, I realize how difficult it is to become a freelance florist here. I will tell you about my journey in the later articles!
Despite having a steady(?) full-time job and doing part-time freelance florist, I'm still living in fear because I know there is still a lot to learn to roll with the punches for a better life. Therefore, I want to practice recording my life, then get used to "sharing", and finally achieve the goal of doing Copywriting. Managing this website will also allow me to get to know the details of digital marketing. If possible, I also want to practice my English writing skills by translating Chinese articles into English.
Instead of creating a new blog on a new platform, it is better to share it with the people who already know me and in a place which I am familiar with.
I hope that you will witness my growth, get inspired, and move towards your goals. It's okay to be frustrated occasionally but we will eventually live our ideals one day,
One step at a time.
If there is anything you are interested in or curious about, please feel free to drop me a private message!
In the days to come, I look forward to sharing my life and experience with you!
Nice to see you all here.
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